I have one friend that I see occasionally who I pal around with. I have an acquaintance who does the goodbye hug thing.
But for the most part, nothing.
It's amazing how much it wears on me. How aware of it I've become.
I have a roommate, who is my best friend, but we're not touchers. My family lives far away.
Beyond my work, it feels like I live in a force field.
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I had a conversation with a friend today who tried to convince me that sex was overrated. That most people who make such a big deal about it are doing so because of societal pressure.
I might be pressured by society, but I find that hard to believe. Why would people have sex if it wasn't worth having? I mean, besides making babies.
Having never had an orgasm, it's hard for me to know though.
She also told me that there was nothing abnormal about being my age and still a virgin. The reactions of most people who find out, a mixture of disbelief and pity, also make this hard for me to believe.
I wish I were religious. Then at least I'd be righteous instead of pathetic.
I might be pressured by society, but I find that hard to believe. Why would people have sex if it wasn't worth having? I mean, besides making babies.
Having never had an orgasm, it's hard for me to know though.
She also told me that there was nothing abnormal about being my age and still a virgin. The reactions of most people who find out, a mixture of disbelief and pity, also make this hard for me to believe.
I wish I were religious. Then at least I'd be righteous instead of pathetic.
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